今天天气炎热,发生了许多事情。没有时间于是先简要记录一下。

听完了 Blood Meridian

在第十二章中,Judge 像是上帝一般说道

Whatever in creation exists without my knowledge exists without my consent.

与此形成对比的第十七章

The universe is no narrow thing and the order within it is not constrained by any latitude in its conception to repeat what exists in one part in any other part. Even in this world more things exist without our knowledge than with it and the order in creation which you see is that which you have put there, like a string in a maze, so that you shall not lose your way. For existence has its own order and that no man’s mind can compass, that mind itself being but a fact among others.

非常非常喜欢的一段。

同样喜欢的还有下面这段,比喻都太美妙了:

The man who believes that the secrets of the world are forever hidden lives in mystery and fear. Superstition will drag him down. The rain will erode the deeds of his life. But that man who sets himself the task of singling out the thread of order from the tapestry will by the decision alone have taken charge of the world and it is only by such taking charge that he will effect a way to dictate the terms of his own fate.

在可能是全书最精彩的第十章中有这样一句

Where for aught any man knows lies the locality of hell. For the earth is a globe in the void and truth there’s no up nor down to it… — Chapter X

立刻想到了

And the Lord said unto Satan, Whence comest thou? Then Satan answered the Lord, and said, From going to and fro in the earth, and from walking up and down in it. — Job 1:7

舞蹈

Blood Meridian 最后一章中的句子:

Only that man who has offered up himself entire to the blood of war, who has been to the floor of the pit and seen the horror in the round and learned at last that it speaks to his inmost heart, only that man can dance.

He never sleeps, the judge. He is dancing, dancing. He says that he will never die.

在食堂吃完饭一边往家走,一边回想着书中最后的情节。说起来最近自己也常常想到舞蹈:在听音乐甚至思考一些问题的时候开始想象手臂的旋转与脚步的节奏。舞蹈:自由、热情、力量与美。

我就这样在草地上走着,两侧是高大的树木,而夕阳从高处倾斜着投射在地面上。阳光在草地中央划出一道明亮的道路,在这条道路上方,可以看见许多细小的飞虫在飞舞。草地中有一些石凳,上面坐着情侣,或是站着锻炼的人,然而他们似乎都对这舞蹈熟视无睹。或许另一天的我也会和他们一样吧。我一步一步地走着,看着树木的透视发生变化,看着一些飞虫消失在树荫中,一些在阳光中闪耀,不透明的躯体被夕日染成黄色。在左手边不远的地方,许多飞虫聚集在一起,在空中形成一个方形的剧场,而它们在其中快速地移动着,画出交叉的金色轨迹,虽然转瞬即逝,但留下的空白总会被新的光亮所填充。迅疾的转向让我想到《物性论》中的原子,而这些飞散的光点确实会令人想到神灵呢。《血色子午线》里残暴而并自称永生的法官在跳舞,而眼前这些脆弱短暂的生命也在跳舞。它们仿佛更加迅速,更加疯狂。。令人惊叹的速度与加速度。我继续向前走,路过一棵高耸的雪松与那棵低垂的雪松,最终来到一棵科西嘉松下,看着它那无数纤细的松针在蓝天下静止;同时呼吸着清新而美妙的空气:感觉到在这一瞬间死去也很好。

(与昆虫相关的故事:上周在 Montsouris 公园里散步,抚摸过一簇被雨水湿润的白花后,有只蜜蜂无意间撞在了我的脸上。不过考虑到蜜蜂飞行的技巧,可以认为他是有意警告我不要乱摸干扰它采蜜。还有一天,午间在草地上休息时,飞来一只疑似蜻蜓的生物,如果是蜻蜓的话一定还是幼虫,因为翅膀近乎透明,只能看见细长的身体悬浮在空中。与蜜蜂的体态形成了有趣的对比。

(另外的事情:下午去看医生。医生的房间里挂着一幅丁雄泉的静物。看医生之前去看了日本战后摄影的展览。晚上回宿舍前还路过亚美尼亚民族音乐会。。嗯之后有空再说吧!